displaced away from home,
far from the usual time zone.
The way to express these thoughts,
Whines, blabbing of all sorts.
Please don't hold it against me,
If you don't like what you see,
I'm sure that you'll have your views,
And so I can have mine too.
I'm scared of what's ahead. I'm scared till I don't want to move. I'm petrified. I can't even take a first step.
I'm scared of what's ahead and what obstacles I have to face to reach it. The sleepless nights, the running around in the cold, the tiredness. Not so much of a big fear, but I'm scared of not being able to complete what I start. I'm worried about rejection, I'm worried about how many ways I can fail.
Is the reward worth it?
I know it is. But why doesn't it feel like it is?
-I don't have enough faith that He'll carry me through. Dang I need to pray more. I need to break it down into little eatable chunks. I need to not be so concerned about the outcome but just do it.
Welcome to December, the last month of the year! :) This is a good time to reminisce about things that have passed. I know this is so cliche but I really mean it when I say 'It was just like yesterday when it was the beginning of the year, and now it's already December!"
There was no other low this year than ... that time where I was freezing to death on the 16 hr train to Riga - armed only with my water bottle filled with hot water and a used teabag. If that was my ultimate low then you'd know how cold it was. :P
Besides that, this month is pretty depressing because of the cold and the lack of the sun is seriously reducing the amount of endorphins in my system. Also, my newly discovered lactose intolerance makes me unable to eat chocolate, another source of endorphins. Sigh.
I think that my cold tolerance has greatly reduced this semester.
On the bright side, I have successfully written 2 songs in this past month. :) Something that i've always wanted to do since like forever! Sadly though my voice cannot carry the songs, haha so if you think you have a voice better than mine we can work out some recording sessions. Youtube recording sessions, I mean.
Feel like crap these few days. Maybe that's why the songs are flowing.
OH you know what I'm talking about... How people string you along giving you the impression that they are interested in you, only to say the same thing about oh, 100 other people in your face. But the worse part is that you've already fallen too deep into it to snap out of 'love' with this person.
Thing is this, once you think you've recovered and figure, hey lets all just be friends. And it starts again - you fall in too deep again. And falling in love with someone that doesn't love you back? That just hurts, doesn't it?
Love isn't supposed to hurt like this. Love isn't suppose to be this hard.
Sometimes I feel like I'm going out of my mind, Boy the way you do me is a damn crime, But then you smile at me and it's alright, With you there ain't any in between...
Every time that I walk out the door I tell myself I can't take it no more There's a part of me won't let you go I keep saying yes when my minds' saying' no...
Me and my heart we got issues (issues) Don't know if I should hate you or miss you Damn I wish that I could resist you Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues We got issues, issues, issues.
Thoughts are better written down. Because people, unlike paper doesn't judge, paper doesn't tell, and hey, you could just burn it later :)
type 1 hypersensitivity: when you have an 1mmediate allergy. (anaphylaxis) Type two: when your immunity strikes back at you. Hypersensitivity of third type, Immune complex. Type four: cell mediated with granuloma.
I'm confused with Lincosamides and Macrolides. Same target of action. 23s rRNA on 50s ribosome, but.. why do they inhibit different things. Macrolides inhibit translocation of 50 ribosome, but the Lincosamides inhibit peptidyl transferase reaction. Yes yes. I got it right.
Tetracyclines work on A site of 30s ribosome, preventing tRNA binding on it, while aminoglycosides work on 30s ribosomes too, binding to it to prevent normal transcription. and lastly, we have chloramphenicol, which binds to 50s ribosome, also inhibiting the peptidyl transferase reaction.
Did you understand what I just wrote? :P if you do, then good for you, you would've done 1 part of Pharmacology well. :)
CONGRATULATIONS.
3rd year med school is tough. It's almost the end though, and i'm glad. I've heard that 4th year isn't so difficult. My brain is still stuck at SPM standard. Why do I feel like i'm still like a form 5 student? reliving the hayday of my prime?! (what a nerd)
Moving on to fluoroquinolones and rifampin. :) I want to eat food.. but yestday's briyani which i didn't keep in the fridge thinking that it would last, well it didn't. It's gone bad now. How did I know? I saw it was stretchy like hot cheese on a pizza, and then proceeded to put it in my mouth. IDIOT move I know. Sobs. What am I going to eat today?!! gotta go and cook now. Crap. I guess I'll just have a few crabsticks. Which reminds me, one of my friends confused chopsticks and chapsticks. HAHAHA. There was this tag thingy on Facebook.
35. Do you use chapstick? Yes of course. ...
42. Do you use chopsticks? Yes!
Then I proceeded to comment saying that they weren't the same thing, because I kinda knew that she wouldn't know what chapsticks were. I was right. *as always..LOL* Too cute.
It's rainy outside. RAIN RAIN RAIN. Been raining all of last week. Seems like it's gonna be like that this week too! What's more, BGT semifinals are on this week. What's more, it's almost time to go home for summer break. THE HORROR.
HOW ARE WE SUPPOSED TO CONCENTRATE FOR the dreaded, looming, horrifying, insanely close with not enuff time to study FINALS?
Obviously exam stress is getting to me. :) This morning I woke up and webcammed with Lynn while i was showing her how I put on my make-up. She said I had hot legs, and that she liked girls with big boobs. LYNN are you coming on to me? eww.
I went and got corn plasters today. Because I realised the corn has now grown to the size of half a 5 sen coin and it hurts like CRAZY! So i was stubborn and didn't wanna get the plasters earlier so it's my fault that I shout everytime I step on a sharp edge or an elevated surface on the floor. BOO HOO.
I am done studying the Inhibitors of Cell Wall Synthesis. Now moving on to Inhibitors of Cell Protein Synthesis.
